Reminder To Myself

When you are on top, prepare yourself to fall down.
When you are happy, prepare yourself to be sad.
When you are in love, prepare yourself to be hurt.

The Day I'm Still Drowning

After so long, I went out with a friend last weekend. Yes, we agreed to be friends. I have a mixed feeling. As Aud said, this is the price that we have to pay when we've decided to be friends with somebody who had hurt us the most. I am sad for what had happened to his life. All I can say, as a friend, I'll be there when he needs a support but he has to help himself.
And I always believe in karma. What goes up must comes down. Sooner or later, it will come.

p/s: be strong dear as a lot more people out there gone through worst than you. Be thankful that you still have friends around you.

Exam, Exam, Exam, Exam, Exam

After so many years didn't attend any exam, I attended an exam today. I didn't prepare anything. The night before when my mum asked whether I'm going to attend the exam or not, my answer to her was 'not sure'. But when I woke up this morning, I just feel that maybe I should go. I did this because of my dad who really wants me to be part of this.
The exam got five sessions. Five sessions ok!! My first paper started at 9.00 am and my last paper ended at 4.30 pm. They got three sessions of objectives questions and the other two more were essay for English and Malay. For Malay essay, at the first place I know I'm going to screw up and I did screw up for that paper. Even though I'm not that good in English but my vocab for Malay are getting worst nowadays. The last time I wrote an essay in Malay was back then during my SPM. Its been ages man!
I finished early for my last paper and obviously it was not the Malay essay. I really don't hope for this. Well, at least I sit for the exam and know what are so great about the exam those people were talking about. The result will come out in two - three months from now. Wait and see..

The Day I'm Drowning

I never cried for so long for the same reason I used to cry every days and nights. But today I did. I can't control myself. I was talking to Aud through YM and I felt sad when she described that E still the same old E he used to be. E still the same old E that we used to hang outs back then during our Melaka time.
It was good to hear that. To hear that he didn't change to other person that we don't know. But I have to admit that I miss him so much. I miss everything about him. And I'm forcing myself to forget everything. Forcing myself to move on. Peoples asked me, why it took me too long to move on? My answer is simple, try to compare of 8 years knowing each others, do everything together and only 2 years just to forget everything?? It is not easy for me. Not easy at all, but I'd try my very best and I know that I'm ok now. I moved on but I can't totally forget everything.
At first I regretted that things didn't work out for us but at least I had a chance and know how it feels. And I can accept it now and I'm not regret. Time flies so fast, and life won't wait for us. Life must go on, so I am.

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25 randoms about me...

1. I hardly went back early when I'm working. I've been in the office for at least 10 - 12 hours per day including Saturday. My friends say I'm in love with my office. Ya, I know I'm SICK!!

2. I love all type of coffees. Not that coffee can wake me up, but I just love it. Some peoples
couldn't sleep but I still can sleep right after a few cups of coffee.

3. I read book before I sleep almost every night.

4. I'm not a morning person. I don't talk when I get up in the morning even to my family. Audrey and me can talk all night long, but when we wake up in the morning, we just kept quiet and both of us actually sit in the same car while driving to class.

5. I have the same thinking for almost everything with my bestie, Audrey. Funny but it's true.
Recently, we've been told by a friend that Audrey and me said the same thing to him and Audrey scolded him the same way I scolded him they way he broke off with his fiance. The
fact is, I didn't tell Audrey how I scolded this friend of us.

6. I'm very quiet to people that I just met for the first time. I'll take my time to observe and study the character of that person until I feel comfortable talking to them. But to those that I comfortable with, I can keep talking like nobody business. Hahahaha

7. People said I'm a snob and fierce. But actually I'm not, just my face maybe and I don't simply talk to people that I don't know well. A lots of my staff said they scared of me and they didn't tell me but told other peoples and apparently, I heard about it.

8. My younger sister & brother and some of my little cousins called me lion or 'singa'. Every time I came back for my semester break, they said "alamak, lion is back!" They even called me that until now. Damn, am I that bad??

9. I still asked my daddy to send my car for services or to change anything, until now.

10. I'm a daddy's girl. I can get very emotional and sensitive to whatever he says even for a small thing. We share the same taste especially foods.

11. I don't like to wear slippers. I only have one pair the same old slippers for the past 2 years until now. My dad doesn't like us wearing slippers whenever we go out with him.

12. I like buying shoes. I still have a few pairs of shoes that I'm not even wear it for once. Same like my dad. He don't mind us buy an expensive shoes but not slippers.

13. I kept what I feel to myself until I feel like talking to anyone.

14. I get hurt easily but I didn't tell especially to those who is hurting me. I will keep quiet until I feel ok about it then only I talk to them.

15. When I'm hungry, I get angry. I'd swear for even a small mistake. I'm back to normal me after I got my foods. Aud and myself didn't talk to each other when we were hungry.

16. I always asked my friends opinion especially Aud and Nis before do or say anything because I'm scared to hurt people's feeling.

17. I drive fast and I'm speeding especially when I'm alone and long journey. If somebody take a ride with me, I'll ask them to put their safety belt, and keep quiet and don't say anything.

18. I have phobia with dogs. I'll be weak when I see dog comes near me. I almost fainted during Aud's birthday dinner last year and during our holiday in Bali.

19. I just discovered that I feel weak when I see blood especially my own blood. I fainted outside my room when one of my finger accidently got a small cut but the blood was damn banyak. My friend said I passed out for a few second.

20. I'd like to introduce my close friends to my family, bring them to my home, or even eat/lepak with them. I'd also talked about their update to my family. In fact, my sister & brother did the same thing. I'd drag my two favourite girls to Ikea and doing the shopping with my mom.

21. When I'd get hurt or pissed off, I need my retail therapy. I will buy something and then feel much more better.

22. I try my very best and forcing myself not to think what will people says about me.

23. I hate people who are talking bad about their friends. How can you claim that he/she is your bestfriend but, at the same time, you talks bad about him/her behind their back.

24. I'd get annoyed when people didn't pay attention when I'm talking.

25. I need somebody close to me to be around when I'm upset. That's why I called, smses, YM with my bestie every single day. Thank you Aud n Nis.

Oh So Random

We need to see things or situation in different ways, different angles, and in a different perspectives too. When we open the window, there's not always a light outside there. Certain things we can see it clearly right in front of us, but sometimes, we have to think out of box to get what we are looking for.

What am I looking for? A lot of things. I kept on adding my list every day. I hope for a miracle to come but without doing anything, it just a waste of time waiting. Our path not always straight. If too straight, no more challenges, no more experiences, and no more lesson to learn. Think about it. This is a beautiful of life. Enjoy and don't regret!

The Day I Had So Much Fun in Industrial Court

On behalf of the new owner of the company, I was asked to be an observer for this hearing of the case. I was in the court from 9.00 in the morning until the hearing finished at 4.30pm. The Chairman for this case was Dato' Haji Sulaiman Ismail. And the hearing was in IR Court, Kuala Terengganu.

Industrial Court, Kuala Terengganu

The case was about the ‘Unfair Dismissal due to Sexual Harassment’

Summary of the case:
Claimant (H) was employed by KBH and his last position was Bar Captain in 2004. He was charged due to grave offense, verbal sexual harassment to one of female employee (Z) during working time at their outlet. Hotel and KBH had a Domestic Inquiry for this case and the panels has decided to terminate him based on all the statement given including the Q&A with all the witnesses.
Claimant filed a case against KBH about his unfair dismissal and claims to reinstate. The question now, HRKR no longer belong to KBH but belong to AV.

The hearing started when the Chairman asked the defendant (KBH) to call their witness one by one. KBH brought three witnesses for this hearing. One of them was the victim of the sexual harassment (Z). The second witness was one of the Panel during the Domestic Inquiry, and the other witness was a Waiter who happened to be there during the incident happened.

After finished with the defendant's witnesses, the Chairman asked the Claimant's lawyer to call their witnesses. They started with the Claimant (H) himself, followed by the other two witnesses who also happened to be there during the incident.

From my obsession, if you want to file a case, you must provide a very strong evidence such as all related documents and witnesses. Claimant (H) didn't provide related documents as an evidence when KBH's lawyer asked for that documents. Claimant failed to produce the documents. Besides, Claimant(H)'s witnesses not strong enough to support him to win this case. They tend to get confused with their own answers. When you provide not a strong witnesses, they get confused with the questions asked by the defendant lawyer, and they gave the wrong answer. So, defendant will get point here to defend their client. Of course, defendant came all the way with well prepared and looks strong during the hearing. They tend so confident during the hearing.

After they finished call all the witnesses, the Chairman gave a due date for both, Claimant and Defendant to submit their written submission to Court with one month and another two weeks for the reply. Since as per Chairman, this case not so complicated, the judgement will be somewhere end of April.

Pray God that we will win, I mean KBH or Defendant will win. Not the Claimant (H). I know I was an observer, but of course, it also relate to us, those who worked with the new Owner.

It was a damn good experience and it was interesting to be in the Court. All this while, I only know the theory. When I studied Employment Law back in Uni time, and now what I practice more to theory part. And, now I got to see and experienced the life hearing case in the IR Court. Cool huh?! I wish I'll be there again, in the court, hear the proceeding, and experience the judgement. I am SICK!!!!!

Kuala Terengganu Trip

,I was in Kuala Terengganu for about 3 days. There was a hearing for court case for the former employee against former owner of my current workplace. But the former owner needs witnesses who are currently working with us now and I need to go as an observer for new owner.

Day 1, Tuesday

We left hotel after lunch around 1.30pm. It was a slow journey and reached Kuala Terengganu around 5.00pm and stopped at Dungun for a quick refresher. After checked in, we went out to find out where exactly the location of the Industrial Court. We had early dinner at this one restaurant name ‘Paya Keladi Seafood’. The food was not nice. Not that bad, but for that fried rice, I’m still prefer the normal fried rice I always had back in Melaka or here. But at least I’m still survived.
We came back to the hotel and later at night, went out again just to find out Kuala Terengganu life at night. It came to my surprise that the town quite quiet and it was only around 9.30pm. There was no traffic at all, you can count how many cars on the road. We went to Batu Buruk beach, and nothing happening there. I was thinking to myself, if I’m going to stay in Kuala Terengganu, how la wei. I can’t survive dow. I always complaint about Kuantan, but at least Kuantan still got the night life and you know that town not dying. This town of Terengganu where already got a status as Bandaraya, is dying at 9.30pm. How pathetic is that??? I’m still lucky I’m living in Kuantan. Hahahahah…

View from the Hotel car park, facing the Duyong Island

Day 2, Wednesday

Had early breakfast at 8.00am as we need to be at the court at 9.00am. We reached court nearly 9.00am and the claimant and lawyers already there. But the hearing only started at 10.00am and stooped at 12.45pm for lunch break and continued from 2.30pm until 4.30pm. It was a damn very good experience for me. I love to be in court. I mean for an observer. It was nice to hear the question and answer, and the way the lawyer asked the witnesses. I loved the procedure in the court. Maybe because once upon a time ago, I wanted to be a lawyer. Hahahaha. Seriously, I’d always wanted to be a lawyer but I didn’t get the opportunity to take that course. That’s why during the University time, when I had to take a law subject, i.e. Business Law and Employment Law, I scored these 2 subjects. Just because I simply loved that subject. And just few days back, I had a chance to be in a court even though not a normal court, but still a court though. I talked to my boss, Gerard, after the hearing finished and asked him to send me again if there is any other court case. Hahahaha, I know I’m sick!!!

Industrial Court, Kuala Terengganu

We stopped by at a famous market in Kuala Terengganu, ‘Pasar Payang’ and I bought a few packets of keropok for my parents.
We had our dinner in the Chinese Restaurant nearby Hotel. After dinner, we planned to go and find any pub or at least a live band. First stop was at Primula Beach Resort. Knowing that the Hotel was the biggest in the town, we though they might have the Live Band thing but unfortunately, they don’t have any. We asked the Concierge guy, and he told us there are two places that we can try out. So we drove to this one plaza first, where based on what that Concierge guy told us is a ‘club’. But when we reached there, it was actually a small room for karaoke and a snooker/pool club. Can you believe that??? Ok la, we were thinking, ok, never mind, maybe we should try the other one. So, we drove up to this hill called Desa Motel while thinking where actually those rich people here having their night life. When we reached up, from outside, we saw a lots of big cars Beemer, Mercs, etc. So we were like “Owh, this is the place la all the rich people hang out at night”. And to our surprised, that place was actually a restaurant with a Malay live band that performs those old malay songs. OMG. I can’t believe. We didn’t sit there, and left that place and went back to Hotel and wondering what the people here, especially youngsters doing at night? Or where they go? How their night life looks like? And I slept that night, with those questions in my mind.

View from the outside of the Restaurant

Day 3, Thursday

Woke up and had an early breakfast at 8am as we are leaving after that. After checked out, we went to this place called, Losong to buy nice kerepok lekor. And we dropped by at the famous Crystal Mosque but didn’t get down from the car. I was so lazy to walk around, so all of us decided just to drive around there. We left Kuala Terengganu around 11.45am and reached Kuantan about 2.30pm.

The famous Crystal Mosque in Kuala Terengganu

What an experience. Will blog about the whole experience in the court. Huhuhuhu