Salam Ramadhan

Today is the fourth day of puasa (fasting), hopefully it is not too late for me to wish all Muslims "Selamat Berpuasa".

When I Haven't Find A New Hobby, I'm Stick To The Old One

Even though I always said I need a new hobby to make me occupied after work and especially over the weekends, I still love to read the most. I can't get enough of reading. I have four new books and already finished two of them.

The new books

Working Wonders - Jenny Colgan

I finished these book title Working Wonders by Jenny Colgan. It took me quite some times to finish up. It is about office life and personal crisis, where Arthur thinks he is just an ordinary guy, getting up in the morning to face another ordinary day in an ordinary town. He became a different person after an incident where he threw a photocopier machine in his office. It was hilarious though.

Young Wives' Tales - Adele Parks

I just finished "Young Wives' Tales" by Adele Parks. It is about three women who need more than a belief in happily after if they are to negotiate their way through messy modern life. Lucy stole her friend Rose's 'happily ever after' because she wanted Rose's husband, Peter & Lucy always gets what she wants. Rose was the ideal wife and is the ideal mother. Connie, a good friend to both Lucy & Rose, is stuck in the middle. She listens to Lucy as she struggles to be wife, mother, and career bitch with one ear & hears about Rose's pain at being lonely single mum with the other. Once I read this book, I can't even stop myself and there were the days that I slept only a few hours because of this book.

Eat, Pray, Love - Elizabeth Gilbert

And I'm currently reading these book by Elizabeth Gilbert- Eat, Pray, Love. I know most of you already read this book but I only in the first few pages of this book.

Eat, Pray, Love - Elizabeth Gilbert

In her early thirties, Elizabeth Gilbert had everything a modern American woman was supposed to want - husband, country home, successful career - but instead of feeling happy and fulfilled, she felt consumed by panic and confusion. This wise and rapturous book is the story of how she left behind all these outward marks of success, and of what she found in their place. Following a divorce and a crushing depression, Gilbert set out to examine three different aspects of her nature, set against the backdrop of three different culture; pleasure in Italy, devotion in India, and on the Indonesian island of Bali, a balance between worldly enjoyment and divine transcendence.

I'll give my own review after I finished the whole book.

The Alchemist - Paulo Coelho

Once I finished "Eat, Pray, Love", I'm going to read "The Alchemist" by Pauli Coelho. How I know these book? A few months back, Suren gave me a copy of these, an e-book. And I'm the traditional reader, I don't like reading an e-book where I hate staring at the computer and reading. I like to read while I'm lying around on my bed, while having my coffee, etc. So I really don't get the idea of reading the e-book. During my monthly visit to the bookstore, I saw this book and without a second thought, I bought it but yet to read.
This book is about Santiago, a young Spanish shepherd, on a journey to fulfill his Personal Legend.

I need to go and do my monthly visit soon as I only have one more book that I have yet to read.

The Day I Feel Like I Swallow A Sleeping Pills

After finished work last Saturday, I went out for lunch with a friend. This was due for quite sometimes, so we've decided just go even though both of us not really in a good condition. I went back a bit early for a Saturday. I was lying on my bed just to rest for a while with my book next to me. The next thing I know, when I opened up my eyes and grabbed my watch was 9.30 am the next day, which was Sunday. Oh my God!! What happened to me? I slept from 6.30 pm on Saturday until the next morning, 9.30 to be exact. What was wrong with me? As if I was so damn tired or was it because of the 1/4 black pepper chicken with macaroni & cheese, coleslaw, and baked beans at Kenny Rogers that afternoon? I have no idea. I was with my mum at home and being either my mum or my dad, they won't wake us up if we are sleeping unless we tell them to wake us up. Yup, in that case, she didn't wake me up at all.

My Saturday night was gone just like that. I was waiting one week for that Saturday night to come. Not that I have date or any plan outside, but I was planning to watch DVDs and read books and sleep late. Unfortunately, I slept early, too early I would say. The next thing I know it was already Sunday. And my head was spinning because of too much of sleep. After spring clean my room, more to arrange back my clothes in the wardrobe, I was lying while reading my current story book. And I felt like my eyes going to close again, very soon. I got up, changed my jeans and top, I went out to nowhere and decided to send my car to carwash and was sitting at Starbucks with my Iced Caramel Macchiato & book until they finish washed my car.

Not a productive weekend I would say. Sigh. Seriously I really need a new hobby. Help. Any suggestions?

p/s: Owh I still confused what had happened to me on that Saturday. As far as I know, I didn't take any medicine at all.Heheheh. Confusing man!

Hush Hush - PCD

Owh, I simply like this song. Audrey likes it too. Hehehehehe

Cinta Macam Teksi?

I had a chat with a long time friend. We hardly talk to each other but once we chat, we always updated each other. I've known him for ages. And today he said something that he thinks about the concept of love.

His concept of love is;
Cinta ni macam teksi..
bila kita tunggu and tunggu, haram jadah tak dapat teksi
tapi bila kita taknak naik teksi, teksi lalu or berhenti banyak giler

Hahahahaha. I was laughing out loud. Funny wey your concept of love. I never heard before.

Get To Know Your Friend

1. what time you get up this morning? first alarm 7.15am but i got up at 7.25am

2. what was the last film you saw at the cinema? Harry Porter

3. what is your favourite TV show? i have a few but i like Lost and Prison Break the most

4. what do you usually have for breakfast? 2 glasses of plain water, i hardly take breakfast

5. what is your favourite dessert?

6. what is your favourite CD at the moment? the one in my car, compilation of my current favourite songs

7. what kind of car do you drive? my cby, 1.6 maroon satria neo

8. favourite sandwich? chicken sandwich

9. what characteristics do you despise? one who promise something but end up break the promise

10. favourite brand of clothing? nothing in particular

11. favourite perfume? DKNY green apple

12. where would you retire? somewhere near the beach

13. what was your most recent memorable birthday? 2008, where i got fuck up and had 3 celebrations at the same time

14. favourite sport to watch? i would say tennis as my parents love tennis

15. furthest place you are sending this? i don't know

16. person you expect to reply back first? Audrey, hahahahha

17. when is your birthday? 1 month & 2 weeks ago

18. are you a morning or a night person? night please

19. any new & exciting news you'd like to share? not at the moment

20. what did you want to be when you were little? a lawyer

21. how are you today? still not feeling well, but in recovering process

22. what is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? 9th - 11th Oct 2009 , Nadia's wedding

23. what is your full name? Nurlina Jamaluddin

24. what are you listening to right now? broken-hearted girl by beyonce

25. what was the last thing you ate? maggi ayam cooked with mushroom sausage, onion, & chili padi. this was last night

26. do you wish on stars? sometimes

27. if you were a crayon, what colour you be? blue

28. the first person u texted on the phone today- my bos

29. favourite soft drink - vanilla coke

30. favourite restaurant - not specific as long as the food is nice

31. what was your favourite toy as a child? - i couldn't remember

32. summer or winter - summer by the beach

33. hug or kisses - i love both

34. do you want you friends to reply back - yes please

35. when was the last time you cried - 2 weeks ago

36. what did you do last night - watched tv with mum & flipped through magazine before i closed my eyes

37. how many keys on your key ring - i have 2 sets of key ring, 1 for my house which i have about 5 keys and another set for office which i have 4 keys. it always with me even im not in kuantan

38. favourite sound - wave sound

39. favourite day of the week - saturday so that i can sleep late and wake up late on sunday

40. do you make friends easily - i choose not to, enough said

41. how many people will you send this to - anybody who reads my blog

42. how many people will respond - i hope as many as they can

The Day I Wish I Can Stop It

I had to interview one of the candidate for the Management Trainee position this morning. I saw the CV last week when he applied for the said position. I just gone through his CV without looking at any particular details. And when he came, I just finished my daily briefing and not able to go through his CV before the interview. I asked him to tell me about himself. He did. And I continued asking him a few questions before I started to ask him about his previous work.

L: so Gab, where did u work before?
Gab: after finished college, i work at bla bla bla as a dadada
L: hurmm interesting. after that?
Gab: i joined abcd and work in singapore as a dadada
L: where exactly u worked in singapore and what was your nature of job?
Gab: i was working as dadada at Changi Airport for 2 years until i resigned last june. basically as a dadadada, i bla bla bla

I kept quiet and just listen what he was saying about his last job. Damn! How on earth I had to interview people who had the same job and were working at the same place as the person that I want to forget. Shit wey. I continued interview him without asking any further details about his previous job as my mind already flying somewhere else. Damn it!!

When we want to forget everything, why it always something related to that person had to come to us?? So far I encountered three different situation.

Situation 1
A few days after we've decided to not contact each other again, i got a message on my facebook from a girl who is a girlfriend of CA's friend. She apparently found me in the facebook and messaged me to confirm whether am I the same person that she knows. Yes, you are correct girl. I am the one.

Situation 2
After a week of not contacting each other, out of sudden I received a sms from CA's number. When I read that sms, it was actually one of the message he sent to me about a month ago where at that point of time, I didn't receive it. Damn it. Why it has to come after it was over?

Situation 3
Two weeks after trying to forget everything about our friendship, one of the candidate that I interviewed had the same job and was working at the same place as CA. That candidate was telling me about his previous job where in my heart I want to tell that candidate, he don't have to explain to me what his previous job cause I know what his job all about.

Ok, no more please. Enough is enough.

Not In A Good Condition

I'm still not feeling well but in recovering process. My fever gone since yesterday, but I'm still having the running nose and cough and sore throat. At this moment, I don't feel like talking to anybody as my voice is so bad. I don't even recognize my own voice. I've finished up all my medicine and my doctor is away. Flu, cough & sore throat..please go away from me.

When I Can't Stop Thinking

I thought everything will be over. I wanted to believe when CA said everything will be back to normal. I wanted to believed when CA told me nothing bad will happen. I wanted to believe everything, but luckily I didn't believe 100% what CA was saying.
After lunch yesterday, during our normal oxygen time with our normal casual conversation with a friend, suddenly a question came out.

S: u have problem with CBP is it?
L: what problem?
S: i don't know, i don't want to know. i just want to know whether u guys have problem or not
L: nothing
S: u guys didn't communicate to each other right? u guys fought?
L: i communicated with him what
S: but not like before kan
L: i hardly see him recently
silent
S: it's ok, i got my answer

So tell me people. Do you think that everything will be ok? I don't think so. If I ever have a gut or want to break my promise, I'll pick up my phone now and call someone and tell him whatever he said before doesn't make any sense. And I want to tell him this. "i've told u calv. things not gonna be the same again. and things getting worse. and now everybody trying to keep their distance from me, and obviously they judged me based on one side of story"

I think Agnes was right when she told me "it's not worth it to be hurt like this when people don't really appreciate you as a friend. they showed that they aren't your true friend"

Sometimes, I just thinking is it really my fault? Is it really a big mistake and people keep on blaming you? And they think, whatever you do is a mistake? Again, is it really my fault? I need the answer for that. What shall I do? What I need to do?
Thank you very much. Thats all I can say.

Weekend Update

Apart from got an invitation to attend my favourite girls' convocation last Sunday, I had a few things to settle in KL. I was supposed to go alone on Friday after work, but ended up everyone followed me that night. It was good since I'm not feeling well that day. I had to ask my dad to drive all the way from Kuantan to KL. We reached KL around 10.30 pm and straight for late dinner.
The next day, together with mum and Nadia, we went to Jalan Masjid India again to find my kain for Nadia's wedding. We were there since 10.00 am until 1.30pm. Luckily I managed to find all the kain for the wedding at Jakel and also managed to get Nadia's tailor to make 3 pairs of baju kurung. Yes, note that 3 pairs only for the wedding. 1 for the night, 1 for the reception, and 1 for the groom's side kenduri. Psycho. And I'm broke! Seriously broke people!

we were waiting for mum to choose the bedsheet for Nadia.

nadia asked me to snap my leg that show my urat-urat, (anes says yurat)

yes, she is so paranoid with the H1N1 issue, thats why she wore that mask the moment we stepped out from the car.

After settled all our thing Semua House, we off to KLCC as dad and Jeff already there. After found that nothing to get in KLCC, we went to Pavillion to find some other interesting thing to buy. But sad to say, the shoes that I wanted sold out in Pavillion. Dad asked to buy other design, but being me, I won't take other than what I wanted. Too bad for me, but I guess good for my dad as he will pay for that shoes. Hahahaha, wait until he is going back to London.

our late lunch at Subway

After my session with my family, as usual meeting up with these two girls is a must. We met at Starbucks, The Curve. Nis wasn't around as she went to Langkawi for a holiday. As they need to go to a Baby Shower Party, I headed back as I need to sleep and rest. And for the first time, I went back early on Saturday night. My early really early, it was 10.35 pm when I reached home.

owh, gambar yg lawa sangat! hahahah note my Diva bangle yg super lawa and i wanted to buy another set of it but in different colour. next trip please!

The Day The Invitation Make Me Wanna Cry Again

I woke up very early last Sunday. Yes, I already awake at 5.45 on Sunday morning and I was in KL. Not my usual time to wake up. Left from my bro's apartment to Bandar Baru Sentul and off to Cyberjaya. I got an invitation to attend my bestfriend's convocation. Apparently, these two of my favourite girls have a same session for their convocation and they got one extra seat. Audrey invited me to attend and be their so called official photographer, which ended up I only managed to snap one or two of their pictures during the event. I've been in the same hall 3 years back and the feeling is still the same, even I was there as guest. The feeling that nobody can describe it. I believe, Audrey and Agnes feel the same way too.

Multimedia University, Convocation 2009

my bestfriend, Audrey Lee Choi Hoong - Bachelor of Accounting

my favourite girlfriend, Agnes Lee Choi Ling - Bachelor of Engineering (Hons) Electronics

sorry Aud, only Anes's name in the book. Yours was stated in last year (2008) convocation book

After abaout 3 hours in the hall, they are officially graduated. Yes, Multimedia University (MMU) graduate! Woohoo. I don't know about others, but I'm kinda proud to be a MMU student and graduated from this university. I believed, I chose the right university when I first applied to further my Degree. Hehehehehe.

And the photo session outside the hall started..

my extended family; Anes, Aud, Uncle Jefferson, Sharon & Mama Alice

thats the way babe!!!

my brother a.k.a Anes's boyfie a.k.a abg yurat

while waiting for Anes with Aud and Haikal

my two favourite girls

again, camwhoring; syah, anes, aud, me & haikal

Proud of you guys!!!!

Congratulations to both of you dear! I'm so proud of you guys! Hehehehe and thank you very much for the invitation to be your guest of honor during your big day! I leave this entry with the song that made all of us wanna cry. Hahahaha if you know what I mean.

Permata Dunia - MMU Official song

Sick, Please Go Away

I'm sick. I have flu (running nose), note that my running nose will make my eyes berair and look like I'm crying and ended up my eyes bengkak and my face look like persian cat. I also have sore throat where everything that I eat, no taste at all. All food taste the same. Yucks. Other than flu and sore throat, I cough none stop since yesterday and also with this fever and all the medicine, I can't open my eyes now. I got MC for today, but here I am in the office to finish up my work. Not that, I can't do it tomorrow, but my boss not around, so I need to be in the office. Help. I hate being sick. Damn it. Maybe I'll go back a bit early today than my normal time. Oh ya, my doctor will scream at me if he knows I'm in the office and not resting at home. Sigh.

After A Week

Its been a week. And this morning, without hesitation I asked the guy who was used to be my friend, my close friend, about something related to work. He answered. I even went to his office to settle the work related issue. We talked about work, but from the reaction, I can see and feel that there is a gap between us. No more our normal conversation like before. It's funny when people changed just like that. Keep on blaming other people, and just can't accept the fact.
As for myself and CA, no more communication at all between us. But what i missed the most were the little touches that made me feel so cared for.

I Just Can't Get Enough Of Them

When I'm in the situation that I totally can't focus or pissed off, I really need to be around them. No one can replace them. No one can make me as comfortable as I'm with them. I drove to KL right after work last Saturday, just because I need to be with them. I know I can rely on them, not only to listen to my craps but they will lend their shoulders for me to cry on. They made me smile again, even though its quite difficult but I know at least I still have them. I tend to forget everything whenever with them. The made me laugh again. No one can describe that.

They made me smile again

Thank you girlfriends, for always be there for me. You are the pieces that complete my journey of life. And I know, I don't have to say this so many times but I just couldn't help it. I love you the most. You will always have a place deep down inside me.

we don't have any issues even we are different; Nisa Jane, Agnes Lee, Audrey Lee

p/s: I shall meet them again this coming weekend. Woohoo

When I Really Can't Stand To Stay InThis Place

I text them.

dear girlfriends,
please make yourself free this evening onwards as i need a big hugs from all of u. appreciate u discuss where to meet. ou perhaps? i'll see u in a couple of hours in KL..luv u