Things are different now. In just a blink of eyes, my whole life changed, my family and our whole life changed..everything. Never thought of it. For the past 1 month, I've been asking myself..am i dreaming? Unfortunately, I am not. It's real. Am not dreaming at all. It's all true. Things happened for a reason, maybe few reasons. Some people don't really understand or tend not to understand. I've been told by some of those people to put aside whatever happened and just move on and get a life. It is so easy for them to talk and they are not in my shoes..our shoes.. Yes, I can't do much but is it wrong to just be there and showed that i really cared and give my support as much as I can. That's the only thing I can do anyway..
But, I am glad..I am thankful for whatever happened as it make me think differently. Make me realize a lot of things. Make me realize the whole world not only revolve around me. Make me look at thing from different angles. Make me look at the whole world differently. Make me realize how important your families are. Make me realize no matter how much your love-hate relationship with your families, at the end of the day they are the one who will stand up for you and be beside you no matter what happened.
Make me realize who are your true friends and who are your friends that can lend their shoulders for you to cry on and just listen without saying anything. Who are your friends that not giving up on you no matter how far they are..even for hundreds or thousands miles away, you know that you can count on them rather than those who are just few steps away from you.
A lot of things running in my mind, yet I cant complain. I'm exhausted to the max, yet i cant complain. My energy is draining out each and everyday, yet i cant complain. I cant complain at all..
Apart from all those things, I realize that I am the same old me but there is something different in me now. I became stronger each and everyday and appreciate what values me more. I know I deserved myself more that everything or anything people thought. . Let them keep on talking until they are tired. I know I did the right thing and I don't need them or anyone to realize that. Enough for myself to know and realize that for the past 1 month, I did the right thing and still continue doing it as much as I want to..As of now, I just want to feel good about myself. Enough said..
But, I am glad..I am thankful for whatever happened as it make me think differently. Make me realize a lot of things. Make me realize the whole world not only revolve around me. Make me look at thing from different angles. Make me look at the whole world differently. Make me realize how important your families are. Make me realize no matter how much your love-hate relationship with your families, at the end of the day they are the one who will stand up for you and be beside you no matter what happened.
Make me realize who are your true friends and who are your friends that can lend their shoulders for you to cry on and just listen without saying anything. Who are your friends that not giving up on you no matter how far they are..even for hundreds or thousands miles away, you know that you can count on them rather than those who are just few steps away from you.
A lot of things running in my mind, yet I cant complain. I'm exhausted to the max, yet i cant complain. My energy is draining out each and everyday, yet i cant complain. I cant complain at all..
Apart from all those things, I realize that I am the same old me but there is something different in me now. I became stronger each and everyday and appreciate what values me more. I know I deserved myself more that everything or anything people thought. . Let them keep on talking until they are tired. I know I did the right thing and I don't need them or anyone to realize that. Enough for myself to know and realize that for the past 1 month, I did the right thing and still continue doing it as much as I want to..As of now, I just want to feel good about myself. Enough said..
