The Day I'm Counting

Two more days to year 2009. That's mean I only have two days to spend in 2008. Two more days to do anything in 2008. After two days, things going to change. Live life to the fullest, Lina.

My Christmas Eve

Sitting here, at Starbucks alone. Without family members or friends, only my laptop and book to accompany me whilst other people enjoying their Christmas Eve. Yes, I know what a pathetic life I have. I need a break and go for holiday.
Get a life, Lina. Sigh.

A Little Update

I have so many things to write down but kind of a bit pemalas..hehehe..So here a little update.

Work;
is still killing me, mentally and physically. I don't understand some peoples. Why can't they just asked and find out what actually happened rather than pointing out and listen to one person only. They don't even dare to ask about the issue or at least give an opportunity for an explanation. And some peoples are so happy to make up stories and acted as if nothing happened. They will clap happily when they see other people suffered and get all the blames. I really don't understand. After a lots of afford that I put in, I'm getting fed-up, tired, exhausted, sometimes in-secured and de-motivated. Last week, I almost gave up and lost it. Some peoples might not understand because they haven't gone through this kind of shit. But, I can't do anything. I told, they listened. Different peoples will give different views and opinions. I think, pretending is the best thing right now, at least for me. I do all my works, only talk when it is necessary and I choose who I want to talk to.
About a month ago, I got an offer for a higher position. But it will be in our sister hotel. After get all the opinions and advices, I made up my mind even though I have to leave everything that I have now behind, including my life and friends here. I was ready to go but unfortunately, our sister hotel want to put that position on hold for a while since the economy is not so good. Now, I feel like I really want to go there. Damn it. If the offer still open for me soon, I'll definitely go. Leave everything behind. How I wish, sigh.

Life;
as usual, a part from work.. I can say it was quite pathetic recently. I feel the distance. It was not supposed to be like that, I guess. I miss my friends a lot. The last time I met them was last month, and Nis before she left to UK. And we hardly talk to each others nowadays. I miss those time where we can do anything like nobody business. I wish I will meet them soon. :-)
My life is damn bored. My routine is either;
a) Already in the office early morning, and will be there for at least 12 hours, then went for dinner or supper or a couple of drink then went back home, Or;
b) Early morning in the office, and will be there for at least 12 hours or more, when back home, and sleep.
The same routine each and every single day. What a pathetic life. Sigh.

Still No Update

Work is killing me. I don't have time to myself. Not even have time to think about my health and I'm getting sick every single day; fever, flu, cough, etc. I hate to be sick, and I can't afford to be sick as my workload is waiting for me each and every minutes. Will update soon.

Am I Alone?

These past few days, I feel like talking to someone who understand me, who knows about my ups and down. Someone who can let me cry on her/his shoulder. Someone who can listen my thought and feeling. Someone that always can be there for me. Someone I call a friend/friends.

Can I say life is unfair? Or maybe sucks? Or pathetic? Or is it only me?



I don't know. And I wish I always know but I don't...